get thrown in the gutter searching for better. Acting like we're taking over. but how is it their fault their country is corrupt after you destroyed it. all they want is to do better, with a dream that one day their country will be liveable, so they can return.
is this wish to 'belong' within this civil revolution simply a performance = of which the camera records you
identity - personal reasons: do they matter in relation to your work
'grudge' > missing > missed out > unfulfilled relationships
___________________________________________ UK (Me)
Carrie Mae Weems
Critical ptions/framework -
Peer parallel lives UK/Lebanon > Different feelings
"to be a woman in Lebanon"
changes in laws ... timeline + influence
100 years  since french occupation
100 years of Lebanon
colonialism, conflict, corruption
currently live revolution
IDEA: Parallel Timelines
Self timeline/UK timeline
Cousin timeline/Lebanon timeline
> Performance piece, what life could've been like : but UK Location
>Performance: photographing the "what ifs" i.e fluent in Arabic, Knowledge on Islam, Family/community
Video of me talking about what life could've been like > with specific sounds in the background > what life should be like
[what is the "perfect scenario"]
VIDEO TWO: Group of people singing 'Mawtini'
IDEA: Portraits + Landscapes of the impact of Politics on Faith/Culture
[cultural identity] Religion, ethnicity, nationality, generation
Lebanon > Faith in Lebanon > influence of politics
> History: conflict w/ Israel - Great grandmother's death / Uncles arrest / Houla Massacre : stories, archives, locations
>destruction: colonisation / influence of colonisers
Portraits/ location|landscape : direct photo or get creative?
what can I make here? [UK] : Portraits of Lebanese diaspora? Dad's ex-life?
Interview w/ mother
IDEA: Rail Line in Lebanon
rail line in lebanon; why isnt there one?
map: plot out/photo main stations
IDEA: Women of Lebanon
womens lives in postcoloinal lebanon > what was it like pre-coloniasation/during > archives : dress, laws, expectations >influence of region/politcs
-as soon as you try to express your Arab side its like all eyes are on you + stress becomes intense. almost feeling wrong.-